Tuesday, March 31, 2009

Siblings...

Do you have any siblings?

I have been fortunate enough to have been blessed with a "little" brother (he's over 6 ft something) and sister...

Now some would call "technicality" on me as while we have the same mother, our father's are different. That would a HALF brother and sister... but seriously... you either are or you aren't...Right?

Anyway, they live over 1100 miles away and I can't even begin to tell you how much that's been ripping me apart.

I was pretty lucky growing up when it came to my brother. He's about 9.5 years younger than I and I had a lot of time with him (relatively speaking) before I was all grown up and wasn't able to get out there to visit as much. I carried him, snuggled him, picked on and tortured him (c'mon I am oldest!) and dragged him with me where ever I went whenever I could. He was and always will be my munchkin.

With my sister, I just never had enough time. Now she's all but grown up and so far away and GOD...what am I missing out on!?!?! Here's this gorgeous, sweet girl who is MY sister and I don't really know her... you know?

I have personally felt very alone lately, which is most likely the cause of my sort of home-sick feeling for the sister and brother that I have but never really had. In my life, family is a pretty scarce thing. We don't really have gatherings, no one is very close (location) or hangs out. At least not in any way that I'm included. This tends to make me feel like a piece of flux floating on the ocean...no real home or place to settle.

Here I am and my little brother is all grown up. He's 21, on his own, job, school, girl, the whole 9 yards. And I don't know that I'll ever get real time with him again. I really want that real time.

And my sister... just turned 17... enough said there...

So, it would seem that my chance is past. You just can't ever seem to regain the connections once you've missed them. I love my siblings... more than they would ever know or believe... but what's left to do with that?

Thursday, March 26, 2009

Feeling Hopeful?

So, as you know, I've been attempting to make some useful handmade things...
I love to get feedback, so I sent an email in mass with some work that I've done and had a response from a group which is near and dear to my heart!
This group is grass-roots and deserves to move up into the trees! The people there are amazing and they truly see the importance of what families need when dealing with a cancer diagnosis and treatment regimen.
So...long story short, let me know what you think of my first lettering experience and please do check out A Message of Hope and see if you can help... time... money... anything helps! Take it from someone who knows!
Thanks!

Wednesday, March 25, 2009

Balance - Zen - Humanity



Hello lovies!

In my life, all through it...as long as I can remember, I've always felt scattered... and as my consciousness has grown, I've increasingly come to believe that there is something in me that is out of balance.

Zen? Spirit? No clue... HOWEVER... I've come across a site that more than 100,000 have found before me and it's AMAZING!

Check it out... read about him, what he's accomplished... his tips, etc.
This is how I WANT to be...it's what my heart and soul desires. Lofty notions... lofty goals... but, as with all things and as I learn more and more from my Kylie8Cake friend... I can only take one thing at a time. So...I need to learn what I can and cannot do... and then learn that limitations mean nothing and all things are achievable... just not always the easy or expected way!

My Generation

Have you ever felt like you were born into the wrong generation?
The wrong era? Decade?

It's funny as I have always felt like I belonged in the 60's.

I'm a more "can't we all just get along" kind of person. I like things to be bohemian and different...

What do you think?

Tuesday, March 24, 2009

Creativity? Boredom....Both!



Thoughts? Likes...dislikes....You know...

One of "Those" days...



It's one of those days... we hear that expression all the time and we all have our own definitions.

The bracelet you see here is for Leukemia awareness.

Now just a couple of years ago, I wouldn't have even known how to spell Leukemia with any certainty. Now, I can spout off terms, diagnosis, side-effects, medications, and so on with ease.

My son had always been the picture of health until this diagnosis.

Today is no different than any other day while living with Leukemia, but today seems to be hitting me particularly hard. For a while now his liver function tests have been elevated. It's killing me because I feel as though I am killing my child with the cure! Seriously speaking, most of what he's taking are poisons and he still has so much more to go... how does a mommy handle that?

For instance, these "medications" affect the brain, kidneys, bladder, liver, heart...EVERYTHING. We're talking life-long side effects here people. LIFE LONG.

THIS IS SIMPLY NOT ACCEPTABLE!

How is it, how can it be that this nation- - - supposedly the most powerful nation - - - is also the most selfish!?!?!

We can invest money and spend money to make "her" boobs bigger, lips more plump, stomach flat, or "his" johnson larger, wrinkles reduced...

We can spend money on vehicles too large and further pollute our planet, we can find ways to make unripened fruits and veggies "look" good and taste horrible and lost all nutritional value.

We spend tons on new... NEW...NEW Houses, clothes, shoes, cars, etc...just to replace ones that are already there and work just fine.

Yet, in this land of plenty, of over-indulgence, of excess... we can't cure cancer...not really... at least not without poisoning those already sufferring from it. When can we finally focus on healing cancer patients without taking them to the verge of death and ruining the rest of their lives?

Just a thought... $5.2 billion was spent on cancer research...in the same year... over $13 billion spent on unnecessary cosmetic surgery. Chew on that a moment while imagining it was your child and not mine.

Saturday, March 21, 2009

What's it all about ...Alfiiiiieeee?

Sooo, this is my eye... lol

Anyway, my crochet bug has persisted. It's kind of funny considering that the weather is now warming up. Can anyone explain? I think I'm making a shawl type of wrap item? No clue. We'll just see when it's done. It's kind of like abstract art to me...I don't really know what it is I'm making... I'm just going in the direction that feels right.



Can anyone tell me if they think that there's any possibility in making money with any of this? Grrr...

I continue to grow frustrated and stressed over my current life... well, past and future too, but consider that the current life is the now and now is where I am, I guess that's what I'll need to focus on...

Is it completely wrong, immature or idiotic to be 31 years old (eeewwww) and have no clue at all what you want from your life or who the hell you are? I used to know... a few years ago, I knew that I was a mother and wanted to be, that I was a wife and wanted to be and that I was a manager of a place that I respected, in which I felt respected and valued and thought that I was doing well... that I may even be able to be considered as successful.

Now, March of 2009, well, I don't know any of that.... well... except the mom part. Come on, that had to have been a given right?

How I feel is that I'm drowning in:
  • Mom
  • Daughter

  • Granddaughter

  • Sister

  • Girlfriend

  • Employee

  • "Ex"

  • Friend

  • Nurse

  • Maid

  • Cook

  • Supporter

  • Therapist
That's a lot to be!


Then, there's what I want to be/feel:

  • free

  • creative

  • crafty

  • singer

  • artist

  • entrepreneur

  • respected

  • trusted

  • loved

  • great mother... GREAT

  • invincible

  • free

  • active
................................Weeeeeeell.... that list could go on! FOREVER!

So anyway, what do I do with all this? How do you get "help" when you don't have time...sincerely don't have time. I find myself growing envious... GREEN with it... of people who don't have children, who get along with their ex, who's children behave more than misbehave, seem to have time, who are focused, who are driven... again, this too could be never-ending.

What's my point!?!? I don't know. If I knew, hell, then I probably wouldn't need to write it down. I've lost all drive, focus, passion... I've really lost a lot...

Every ending leads to a new beginning

Thursday, March 19, 2009

Another creation... Thoughts?


So... now you've seen my first two creations...what do you think? Do I have a shot? Be brutally honest!
For sale... $6...
Double loop braclet... blues and greens....

Wednesday, March 18, 2009

For Sale - Yippee...



This is the finished product of my craft bug hat! This is hopefully the start of a beautiful friendship - you know, me and the bug!?! Lol.
Anyway, I'm hoping to build momentum and get my business off of the ground.
So... I'm asking $8 for the very first official Weird Chic Creation!
Thanks!

Bitten By the Bug!

Good morning! Do you know why it's good? Cuz I feel oh so accomplished! This picture is of a cute little cappie I made just last night!

Now, it's not done, and I plan to embellish it with a few crocheted flowers.

So, it's the crafting bug! I haven't done this stuff in 15 years or more! My plan is to (hopefully) do more and sell my crafts. Etsy is the goal, but you need money to make money so that will be a while!

I have a few friends with adorable little girls who can hopefully model for my accessories... and I'll be sure to include the boys too! Hopefully to come are some onesies, hats, and I don't even know what else! I'm just so excited!

This is me...being a geek...

Sunday, March 15, 2009

Dumpster Diving! Oh Yeah... We did it...

No joke boys and girls, my dear friend, Kylie Ate Cake (aka K8C), and I went dumpster diving! Why you ask? WHY NOT!?!?!?

Allow me to ellaborate...

First, when I say that "WE" went dumpster diving... well... I am the only one insane enough to actually enter a dumpster...lol... however, K8C was truly a sport.

Picture if you will, it's dark (we met up around 10 PM), misting rain, and quite chilly in fact. We took K8C's car and headed out for our treasure hunt. I'll tell you what I've learned:

  • All dumpsters are not created equal
  • straddling the top of a dumpster while contemplating your entry does not feel good upon one's crotch-al type areas
  • that according to some (ahem ahem ahem - K8C), every dark place, every train track, and every large box is a sure sign of Hobos. Hobos, in case you did not know are always creepy old men and always out to get you. They apparently are also very stealth in that you must be on the constant look out and wouldn't possibly hear them coming.
  • Big Lots and Ollies truly have the best stuff!
  • We must start noting when trash pick-up is for different locations.
  • Before getting carried away and fishing out everything cool...check the first couple to make sure there's no real reason that they are in the garbage.
  • Not all things slippery in a trash can are yucky...they just are until you realize what they are...lol
  • Grocery stores throw away stuff that really is still good!
  • You CAN in fact fish very well with what used to be a broom handle - however - said broom handle cannot handle an industrial garbage back full of granola bars.

All in all, I would dare to say that I had an absolute blast! Here's the take:

  • Granola bars - I haven't counted, but at least 100
  • Mini bottles of shampoo
  • Toy Car
  • Travel coffee mug
  • garbage bags - not used - a torn box of perfect garbage bags
  • ear bud headphones - they work
  • a picture frame - glass in tact, needs one side super glued
  • adorable boys lamp shade
  • Special K bars
  • Cute decorative curtain anchors
  • a really pretty lace curtain - nothing at all wrong with it
  • And, the Creme-de-la-creme - the perfect can with no label!

Check out the pictures!



This is definitly an adventure that I plan on doing again and again...and I hope dearest Kylie 8 Cake will continue to join me!

Now...here's a special treat... We have decided that we simply must have a contest! Guess the contents of the mystery can! K8C believes it to be creamed corn and I believe it to be chunked pineapple. Lol. We are a creative pair. Indeed.

What do you win!?!?!?!?!?

$10!! That's TEN DOLLARS!! Ten Buckaroos.... (must have paypal)

To enter they have to guess what is in the can and post your answer here...

If there is more than one right answer, then I'll use random.org to select the winner from all correct answers.

You'll get 1 extra entry each for

1. Follow me

2. follow kylie ate cake4

3. subsribe to kylie ate cake's newsletter

So, come on boys and girls ...Tell me what you think!! I gotta hear from you before 10 PM EST. on March the 31st!

Follow me, get all the points you can and tell me what's in the mystery can!

Saturday, March 14, 2009

Edition I: Bisexuality

So, now the question remains: just how to broach the subject. Because right now, we are no longer JUST discussing sex...OH NO... we are discussing sexuality. To be more precise, in this post, we're discussing being Bisexual.

Bisexuality Defined: A person who is sexually attracted to and engages in sensual or sexual relationships with people of either sex. A bisexual person may not be equally attracted to both sexes, and the degree of attraction may vary over time.

OK then... that explains it... If it is nothing...

How do I know if someones "Bi?" Just like any other sexual orientation, there's no "right or wrong" way to be bisexual.

Some would argue that bisexuality isn't even real. That persons of this orientation are simply confused.

Bisexuals often face reticule, not only as what's faced by the gay community, but they don't fit the mold of heterosexual, nor do they fit in with homosexual.

And, not helping the matter is the media's depiction of bisexuality. Showing bisexuals as sex addicts, indiscriminate, without any standards, taste or class.

So, tell me...What do you think? I would love some comments on this...to truly know what you think. Think Think Think Think...

Ok, seriously... I can tell you that people feel what they feel and believe what they believe. I know it is not my place to judge. Besides I am simply the weirdest person I know, so who am I to say. I know people of every orientation and I cherish them all for everything that they are...

Do you feel differently if a friend tells you "Sally, I need to tell you that I am bi" Now, I have known people to be like "So?" and I have known others to instantly think that she was going to hit on her...Lol. Again...what do you think?

I do think people who are Bi have an "easier" time when it comes to coming out simply because they don't have to... most family and even friends don't even ever need to know. Simply because they can appear to be "normal" ... i.e. heterosexual.

Have you ever thought about it? Someone of the same sex? Are you that guy who dreams of "girl on girl?" Lol...well, we all have our own lives...right?

I'd Like to Write a Series... Introduction.


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I've been looking for a way to write about modern sex without coming across as tacky, crude or uncouth. This is a task that I have been finding to be rather difficult. Now, the thing is that I am unsure if it is hard because I'm just a blunt and admittedly open person, or if everything is so damn politically correct anymore that you just never know what's "OK" to say.
So, this is what I've decided to do...

Write what the hell I want!

The masses are asses!

Yay Me!

Please now boys and girls, please do not get upset. I do VERY much value your opinions... I truly adore hearing conflicting views and playing the "devil's advocate" for all the difficult topics out there. Keep in mind, opinion has never killed anyone... only action can stake that claim...

So, we shall call this my introduction. Ladies and gentlemen, I hope that I can entertain, enlighten and maybe even educate you with my (probably really) short series on HUMAN SEXUALITY...duh duh duh...

I Beg of Thee...

I'm sending out a plea... Help me to get the word out about my blog... Pretty Please!

Thanks!

Friday, March 13, 2009

A Mother's Guilt


Seriously speaking, I am many things in my life... some make sense and most don't, however, before anything and everything else...I AM A MOM.

Have you heard of Mother's Guilt? Thanks to women's lib, women today have more to be "strong" for than ever before. Truly, I think it's getting even harder every day. More and more, traditional roles are greyed.

Please, Do not mis-understand me...I am all for the working mom, the right to wear the skirt or the pants in my family. However, for most people there are still some basic beliefs that are so ingrained it's taking longer to change. Longer than the push of women doing it all is taking.
Anyway, with all this, a mother's guilt is even worse. Mom has always had guilt. It's are we doing enough, loving enough, teaching enough...etc. However, today it's much worse. Have I left them alone too much, at daycare too long, too many activities, not enough activities, was the dinner I made healthy enough, did I clean the floor good enough, are their clothes good enough, should I be making more money, should I quit, are my benefits good enough... trust me...it could go on and on and on and on and on...
Now...if you get the unique (though not so rare any longer) privilege of being a single mother...WHOA...Watch out! Because you will have guilt like no other! It's never ending and to be honest...sometimes completely irrational!
I can tell you from personal experience, if you have the "father" involved, whatever the situation, he will find a way to make it even worse. When he is done with you, the hole in the ozone, Holocaust, seal clubbing, oil dependency, trans-fats, cancer AND the stain on your son's jacket will all be your fault!
I know I make a joke here...but Guys... cut (some) of us a break... and ladies... try to find someone you trust to lean on. I for one have only the choice to do what I can... and try.

Happy Friday the 13th!

So, what do you think?

Do YOU have Trisadekaphobia? paraskavedekatriaphobia? friggatriskaidekaphobia?

Is it anything 13 related...or just Friday the 13th... Let's investigate, Shall we?

Did you know that 2009 has THREE Friday the 13ths? Usually, there are two of these in a year. So, is 2009 EXTRA unlucky? Lol...
  • Superstitious diners in Paris can hire a quatorzieme, or professional 14th guest.
  • It's been estimated that [U.S] $800 or $900 million is lost in business on this day because people will not fly or do business they would normally do.
  • According to superstition, if you cut your hair on Friday the 13th, someone in your family will die.
  • A myth says that if a funeral procession passes you on Friday the 13th, you are the next to die.
  • Tupac died on Friday the 13th
  • Castro was born on Friday the 13th

Ok... so are you worried? Should I be worried? I can tell you, honestly, if it CAN go wrong, it WILL go wrong for ME! Lol... I do try to maintain a humorous view of this fact, and I mean that it is a FACT! Ask and I'll prove it. Ha!

Anyway, I've never found anything in my personal life that corresponds with Friday the 13th... heck, never even anything with 13 that I can recall.

So...It's my (un)scientific conclusion that it's all a big pile of pffffffffft.

Random Hilariousity




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Thursday, March 12, 2009

TAKEN - WOW Again!



Liam Neeson OWNS this role... He was so believable.

Ok, I don't want to really review it so much as I want to tell you...and you tell the next guy...and the next gal...and then she tells 3 more and so on...that this movie is AMAZING!!!!

Have you seen it? Wow... there's a few key lines in it - that i won't say so i won't ruin - that will just - rock - your - world!!!! Ohh, you just don't know, I want to tell you so badly...but I won't...I just can't!

Grrrr... Anyway... Long story short, every girl in the world wants this guy as her daddy! ALL OF US! I don't care if you hate your dad, your uncle, don't know your dad, you hate men in general...doesn't matter...Just DOES NOT MATTER! We all want this man as our daddy!

So, get this... Did you know that FOX Productions are idiots? AMERICA...They kept this movie from us...this AMAZING movie! They released it almost a full year in Europe before here in the U.S.A.!!! WHAT? Grrr again ladies and gents...Grrrr indeed! Oh...Oh Oh Oh...South America...They came before us too!
Why?!?!? The world *sigh* may never know...

Wednesday, March 11, 2009

All Hail Rachael Ray...Bow Down! We are Not worthy...

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ALDI!!!!!!!

Woo...OMG! OMG! OMG! Tehe Tehe ....(breath, breath, breath)

Ok, I realize it's a new blog... and all that jazz...but if you know me personally, you'll know that I am totally and completely in love with, a complete whore for, I should work in their Marketing department... ALDI!!

If you don't know Aldi... Check it out... see if there's one close... etc.

Anyway... I am one of those oddities that thinks each line, mark, crow's foot/feet is making me look that much older. And the funny thing is I'm so not vain. ANYWAY...My lover (Aldi) now has skin care http://aldi.us/us/html/product_range/7196_7527_ENU_HTML.htm
I don't care who you are...That's freakin' awesome! And, I glanced at it briefly when I was in there last time and it's so cheap!!! Compare it to even a regular brand like Olay and WOW... WOOOOOOOO ....soooo groovy!

That's all....TTYL

Addictions! hooooo....gimme gimme gimme

Morning... I'm blogging from work, sssshhhhh...this should never be attempted boys and girls! Naughty!

Anyway, I wanted to tell you about some of my most recent addictions. Now keep in mind, the majority of my addictions starts with a computer and then moves into the real world.

**Small pat on the back, I smoked for 12 years and have now been smoke free since February 2, 2008**

Moving on... here is one of them http://kylie8cake.blogspot.com/ ok ladies and gents... this blog rocks and here's why, cuz the writer rocks! Creative, quirky, a punk, diva, mom spirit on a quest! She keeps my ADD afflicted interests so yeah, she's good! Plus, she does all kinds of rockin' good giveaways...see...She's the bestest! TOLD YA SO! Her latest is a cook book...good stuff...

Next is http://groups.yahoo.com/group/hagerstownFreecycle/ this is such a fun social experiment! One man's trash is TRULY another's treasure! It's been great. I've been able to successfully purge so much unnecessary junk! And let me tell you, I'm a pack rat!!! So this is truly a big deal, and has been really spiritually uplifting! So yeah, that's cool and fun and even makes you feel like you're giving something back to the community. I mean hey, it's better than rotting in the dump right?

Alright, this is the MOST recent addiction http://www.etsy.com/. Yeah...This one also comes courtesy of Ms. Kylie8cake! (told ya she was cool, she finds all the neato stuff) This is like shopping every craft fair, gypsy stand, flea market, ecclectic, antique store and show all at once! Not to mention, if you're in the market for a unique and heart-felt give...THIS is the place to go! It's amazing...the people are so dang creative! So yeah...Check that one out too...

Don't get me wrong, there's far more to my life... my other addictions are music (music music music music music music), cooking, eating (ugh), driving, decorating, crafting, MOVIES and on and on and on... I have TOO many addictions because you know what...There's not enough time for it all! Ah! I need more time to parent, work, housework AND feed my addictions... Anyone know how?

Ok...whew... gotta come down from the high now... back to real work...sssshhhhhhh

Sunday, March 8, 2009

Random Goodness...



Do you believe in random acts of kindness?
How about paying it forward- like the movie?
I do... I'm the happy pessimist, yes, but I do believe that these things can work. The question is how? I love doing good deeds, charitable work, etc. I want to do it all...and then end up achieving nothing.

Anyway... what have you achieved? I've given when the moment arises... like a lady who was obviously not well to do who was a few dollars short in paying for her sparse groceries. I couldn't help but turn and give her what she needed. Can't all of humanity be that way?

Is it then selfish to wonder where someone is with those few dollars for you? No... we all have needs.

Let's just start fresh and do something new; Try this:
  • Buy a few dollars worth of lottery tickets and give them to strangers
  • pass along good reviews to the manager of your waiter or on the phone
  • Give up your seat for someone
  • Help an elderly neighbor - mow the yard, clear the sidewalks, offer to go to the store for them
  • Hand out single flowers to strangers with a smile
  • Write simple happy notes and leave them some place public...

It's just little things... You may be surprised what comes of it. If nothing else, I love that warm fuzzy feeling inside.

Stupid Rude Idiots of the WORLD...


I'm just so incredibly annoyed right now! Ok, Ok... this blog is apparently becoming my bitch digest. lol...I swear that I do have happy sun shiney times too...Lol.
Ugh. Anyway... So, I love him dearly but my guy was laid off almost 6 months ago now. First, let me tell you what... he has been nearly unbearable for me to be around!
... ... ... *deep breath* moving on... ... ...
So, he got a temp job, and is off on a job tonight, overnight. WOO HOO ...he'll get paid, happy dance, big smile, yippee....this is a good thing. It's far away and over night, but oh well. So, they partner him up with some others for the drive. Dude "A" is driving. They get about an hour down the road and Dude "B" decides to light up a blunt! Not asking if it's Ok with the others in the car, or whatever...then...THEN...passes it to Dude "A"...You know, the driver?!?!?!?
Let's get something perfectly straight here... I have NO problems with weed. I think it should be legalized, monitored and taxed the hell out of (lol)...Ok, back to point... I don't care about it. I have no moral or ethical B.S. with it ...
HOWEVER.....................................................................................................................
not when you're imposing it on someone else...you know, like in a small car! and not when people are trying to keep their shit together and provide for their families and/or kids by working in an economical environment where work is scarce and if you were all busted that would be gone along with everything else!!!! I'm so ticked off right now! Down right pissed off!!!
Hello? You are operating a motor vehicle, with some that I LOVE in it! HELLOOOO....you're making them all smell like weed...to go to WORK! Do you really think noone will notice?
AAAAAAHHHHH... Ok, I am totally not ticked at BF...not his fault that it happened. It's just that responsibilities come first and if someone else F-s that up for you what then? what if ....what if... what if... but C'mon... UGH.

Yes...Evil



Can anyone tell me why the evil seem to prosper? GRRRR

Ok, seriously... I know many ex's, his, yours, mine...whatever. I know an ex who after cheating, pregnancy from cheating, then...THEN... Get's given a brand new, very very nice vehicle after getting the one that they were driving repo'ed... Mind you, the one repo'ed was also in the other spouses name! WHAT? Lol... is that how it's supposed to work?

Another one, ALSO cheats, ALSO ends up in a pregnancy through said cheat... they get to move to a nicer house... they get family that buys them all new household items, furniture, everything. WHAT!?!

so... how does Evil prosper? My dear friends if someone can truly answer that for me, the universe would make sense. Yet...You have those that try to balance, take care of everyone else, take the high road, give, and just genuinely be decent. . . and what do those friends get? Hm, a hard time, being broke, no support, struggles and tears.

Ok Ok ...I swear I don't always want to complain... sometimes ya just gotsta get it out!

Who are you?

Are you who you think you are? Better yet, are you who other people think that you are? And the bestest question of all is are you who you WANT to be?

I don't know about you, but I can tell you that who I portray to the world is not who I want to be; who I see deep down inside my soul when I look into soul's mirror. I think that the image that I portray is boring... as much so as I am bored with it really. However, I feel as though I'm trapped by how things "Should" be...how I should look for work...should be to attract the right kind of boyfriend or friends...How I should look to gain respect...How a mom should be and look... I'm SHOULDING myself into an early grave!

So, that's the question...are you shoulding all over yourself? Who are you and who do you portray?

With me, I portray the mom, the typical one at that minus the doting husband because well, he decided to stick his dote somewhere else...LOL. I am the girl next door, the "normal" girl, the blah blah blah...You see where I am going? The 21st century mom, employee, etc.

Who am I really and who do I WISH I could be? Wow... I want to have a lot of different tattoos-not random, no, but I already have it all laid out! I have one now.... I want to have more piercings... I currently have 7, and there are about 7 more that I'd like and for the most part...I can't... purely because of the image that employee me has to portray. UGH! I want to be me... I'm artistic and creative, I love to cook, and be down right silly and make no sense. I want to be different but ....
I wish I could toughen myself up, do Tae Bo, become a vegetarian. I think I lack real convictions. I want to do it all, save it all, be it all... and yet...I don't have a clue who I am...Lol...Should I not know that by now? Really? Do you know? Who are you?

http://www.4degreez.com/misc/personality_disorder_test.mv <--- can this help? Lol, How about
http://www.ehow.com/how_2083242_find-yourself.html
or
http://www.allthetests.com/quiz16/quizpu.php?testid=1131242214&katname

Who knows...but if you find that answer....dude! Lemme Know!




Purge...

To all who came in pursuit of weight loss suggestions... sorry for the misleading title, we're not discussing that type of purge here.

I seriously think my life is a slow decent into insanity... and maybe I just don't know it. One of those surreal maybe my life is just someone else's dream kinds of things.

Anyway, I'm on a mission to learn new things everyday. Actually, it's one of my many missions. See, I'm, well, Uh... I'm:
  • a pack rat
  • an educator
  • a pupil
  • an artist
  • writer
  • poet
  • musician

I go in too many different directions at once and can't seem to get where I want to go...and I dare to wonder why. HA...

So...back to the REAL topic, or title as it were...I'm PURGING!

This is a cycle that I go through fairly frequently. As much as I seemingly enjoy accumilating "stuff" I seem to gain equal enjoyment from the act of giving it away...and occasionally even turning a small profit. You see, these cycles seem to be something that I NEED to do...It's a driving force within me to get LESS stuff in my home. I get into an almost zen type of Fung Shei, minimalist type of person... an alter ego to my pack rat? Hmmm... Possibly.

Anyway, Recently, I've managed to give away a lot. Some people are shocked at what I give away, but all I can do is believe that God will provide...whichever god you choose. I believe in Karma... so, In that belief I will continue to put "things" out there for those who will end up needing it and have faith that when I have a need, the universe will somehow supply it.

What do you believe?

Thursday, March 5, 2009

Sickness

So here we are, together on this my first day of official Bloggery...

Do I start in the past to tell you about this sweetly psychotic girl or do I choose to start fresh?

I hope that you find this as a laughable and quirky desent into madness. I enjoy quirky, odd and interesting. Maybe you can learn something...hopefully I'll learn something... I would like to educate you, but more-over, I'd like to show you the little oddities of life that I love and that keep me going...
You'll find that my topics will go from cooking to sleeping, sex, divorce, parenting, anger, books, movies...eh... it does go on.
Here we go... Buckle up, It's gonna be a bumpy ride

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